Today...

For some reason I woke up this morning and was overwhelmed by my desire to be here:

Working up my motivation to get out of bed and be productive would have been much easier if I had people to tell me they were leaving me behind if I didn't get moving.  Today I woke up missing my friends:

Today when I woke up I was wishing I was heading down this path: 

But I'm not. 

I'm here in Ohio... working on some things for the mission trip and trying to be productive.

I just kept thinking all morning... maybe I shouldn't have gone hiking to begin with.

What if I never stop wishing I was there?

What if I never stop thinking about the journey I am missing?

I can function here.... I can be productive... and I can miss the trail too.

I CAN do both... I just have to convince myself its possible.

It has been good to be home and laugh and catch up.

It has been good to sleep in my bed and see my dogs.

Crazy trips to the lake with Faye to see Linds.... 

Those are good too. 

 I think I am in this very strange spot of saying... this is my real life... but the trail was my real life too.  It all CAN coexist.  I may shower now and wear clean clothes... I may not stink as bad or wear dirty socks every day... but I'm still the same girl I was on the trail.  I don't want to lose sight of that.  I don't want to lose what I found there...

I want to be hiking again and I think all the time about how to make it happen.

Something is very, very wrong with me!!
Just thought you should know the truth.  =)