If you had found yourself at the Brown Street Starbucks the last couple of days between the early hours of 7 and 10 am, my fellow barista Bethany and I could have helped you to discover the 'roast you love the most'... We would also fill your mind with some of our vast (not) coffee knowledge. True.
Lately the big wigs have been visiting our Kroger. Apparently our store is the 2nd highest grossing store in the nation. When they stop and talk to us we are suppose to say 'it doesn't get any better than this.' True.
This weekend I am serving on a Chrysalis team, completely unexpectedly. I have some amazing memories, great friends and inspired moments that have happened in this old church. It is an unexpected blessing to be serving here, especially when I have been missing ministry so much. True.
This week was hard. People I love dearly were hurting in big ways... I worked myself to the edge of exhaustion... I didn't get to have much time for family or friends... And the person I usually love to intentionally email or text every day went days between messages.
I haven't replied to emails in ages, I rarely sit and chat with my mom anymore... Life is busy, the wind is cold... And time moves along.
There have been some amazing sunsets this week, nights full of beautiful cold, black, starry skies... Even the moon has been big and orange and amazing. This week I missed sleeping in a tent, snuggled up in a sleeping bag... It's too cold for that right now, but I sure would love it.
Some days I really miss my old life... Both the pre trail one and trail life.
Some days I am so thankful for this season, these days.
I recently read a quote that said "feed your dreams, not your fears." So as I find myself here, in this season, I am learning to do just that. I have big dreams. I want things that seem unattainable. I want things that depend on what others choose, things beyond my control... I have crazy plans and no idea how to make them be reality... But I want to feed the dreams, I want to live a big, big life.
Maybe part of being here this weekend, in this old, familiar place, is about learning to be quiet and learning to let go of control. I'm ready for the next adventure. Wanna come?!
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