If I could choose

Sunday has come to an end and since I don't have a nice "my office is closed on Monday for the holiday" job anymore, my weekend is officially over.  Ho hum.  

=)  Just kidding.  I had such a great weekend... from bagels with Meghan (who reminded me life should be filled with laughter) to coffee with Abby (who reminded me the big, important things are worth the struggle)... from celebrating Bob's birthday to laughing at Baby Abby's antics... from a quiet, reflective Saturday morning at home to an amazing evening worship at Candlelight... from seeing some of my favorite Chrysalis girls (and guys) to milkshakes and honesty with Faye... I had a weekend that was EXACTLY what I needed.... I am blessed.

I remembered this weekend what joy has come into my life... what struggles I have left behind... what big dreams lie ahead... and how blessed I am.  I also remembered how very much I love youth ministry and how much I miss it... and how I truly desire to get back there... but I also remembered that the journey to there is still a work in progress, much as I am still a work in progress... I am blessed.

I drove a bunch this weekend...and as I did, I thought about choices... how things would be if I could choose...

If I could choose I would choose bare feet, not socks or shoes.

...I would choose coffee in the morning with friends, not oversleeping my alarm and rushing off to work.

...I would choose meaningful and inspired worship services, not ritual and tradition.

...I would choose mountain sunsets, not fluorescent grocery store lights.

If I could choose I would choose sunrise by a waterfall, not rainy Monday mornings.

...I would choose to be snuggled up under the stars, not sleeping in a house in a neighborhood.

...I would choose white sand beaches, not city streets.

...I would choose winding paths through the wilderness, not sidewalks and pavement.

If I could choose I would choose the rich laughter of friends, not the hum of the TV.

...I would choose to spend my days serving and loving, not worrying about scan rates and quotas.

...I would choose more love and less judgement, more peace and less arguing, more grace and less selfishness, more humility and less pride.

...I would choose to follow dreams, not worry about things that don't matter.

If I could choose, I would choose to live, to love, to follow my heart.

Good thing I get to choose.... I am blessed.